I know what originally caused my regular bouts of bad stomach pain ; It's nothing life-threatening , but can be most debilatating .
I do'nt know the cause of my difficulty in forming friendships or relationships , and , could some form of autism possibly be involved : Who knows , I'll probably never know .
I put on a cd of a Bruckner Symphony , his 5th , conducted by Eugen Jochum : His monumentally dignified and spiritually-affirming  music somehow helps one to realise that there's more to the universe than ones own doubts , difficulties and desires .

Anyway I'm now going to try watching the 'Reverend Death' , on C4 .