Am feeling quite  depressed , though not drastically , and more tired .
Which may be something to do with it being three years this friday since I was suddenly and horribly abandoned .
I can't  find anything to write here about , though I expect that normal service  will  be resumed soon .
Hell is other people , heaven is other people , I have so little 'face to face' contact with  people , other than my dear Mum .
Since my 'partner' of over 10 years suddenly left and broke off contact with me I've been more or less back to where I was before I met her , except that I'm more confident  to be relaxedly , spontaneously warmly affectionate and tactile with women , except that I'm virtually never in  situations  where it's appropiate to be .
I watched the programme earlier with the sensationally succulicious Ms Saba Douglas-Hamilton , in Africa ,  who strikes me as being a 'free spirit'  , who it would be wonderful  to be involved with at all , so long as she did'nt tactlessly or intentionally cause jealousies , which I doubt that she would .