For any of you who may have been watching tonights C4 bore-a-thon repeating what we've all heard dozens of times before about Camilla Parker Bowles-Windsor , something you may not know of : From 'Princess Diana The Hidden Evidence' by Jon King and John Beveridge :
The night of June 11th 1997 :  Mrs PB was travelling to meet Prince Charles at Highgrove , on a stretch of road about 8 miles from there between the villages of Norton and Easton Grey in Wiltshire . According to Police reports she was travelling at some speed when her car , a green ford mondeo belonging to Buckingham Palace seemed to lose control and plough head-on into a Volvo Estate driven by a Carolyn Melville-Smith of Easton Grey .
The collision left Ms Melville-Smith's car overturned in a ditch - She suffered chest injuries .
Mrs PB was relatively unhurt  - indeed , she immediately climbed out of her car and fled the scene in a self- confessed state of "sheer terror"  ,leaving Ms Melville Smith trapped and in pain in her overturned car .
Following the 'accident' Prince Charles ordered Mrs PB's personal security to be considerably stepped up  - a curious response to an innocent road traffic accident .

There is much more : to type it all out would take me ages .

I watched 'Enduring Love' which I recorded the other night - Interesting - I would hate to be 'stalked' by anyone like Rhys Efans character in that , and , I've not stalked or been stalked by anyone , though I know about loneliness and I have ,  though very seldomly , been unexpectedly struck by someone and for a time been pre-occupied with them , and it never worked out happily .
There can I suppose be blurry divisions between love , infatuation and sexual longing .
I was never 'in love' with or in any way obsessed with my 'ex-partner' Julie , and  we never had a terrific 'sex-life' ,
and , none at all for the second half of our living together .
Though I did love her very much , and in the earlier years we told each other every day how much we loved each other .
She is quite significantly overweight , I mean , around size 18 - 22  , and , which to be honest , is not exactly and aphrodisiac .
She has a nice face and hair and , at her best  she is pretty , witty , warmhearted and fun ; At her worst she is morose , self-pitying , cold and passively agressive .
Which does not bring out the best in me , and she abandoned me on March 18th 2005 , cutting off all contact with me . We breifly sort of became a bit friendly again several months later , which did not last .
Strangely , just in the last 3 or 4 days I've started dreaming and thinking about her again  but , sadly , she is not going to contact me and if I were to contact her again it would virtually for certain not bring about anything posotive , and only bring all the pain of it all back to me which is the last thing I want .